Hmmm..

i remmeber i used to use this thing all the time to just....write down what i'm feeling without stopping and not publish entries. it felt so good sometimes, this thing was tha shit back when we were little.  every entry adn everything on here had a point, it had a purpose, it had intricate details about ppl's lives, their emotions...but now ppl seem to be more into other shit, like facebook, where all ppl put on there is a lil bit bout theirselves; their wallposts and pictures show more of their character rather than a thoughtout entry.

thats fuckin gay.  i dont fuckin care that you were wearing some low cut shirt thats 'oh so cuuuteee' that you FINALLY got to wear to some party, even tho u party like every fuckin weekend.  no, i'm not emo or anything.  i'm jus trynna say....damn....ppl have gotten so fake and shallow.....what happeneed to liking someone for who they are?  what happened to that steve urkel lookin boy gettin that laura girl in the end?  what happened to givin up that hot ass girl for the one thats always been there for u, made u laugh, cried with you, and even did ur work when u were jus too sick to do it?  what happened to choosin ur friends for those same reasons, not cuz they make u look like the shit when u walkin down the street?  what happened to close friendships, long deep conversations, and all that shit?

and what happened to no ego.  i hate when ppl bring in their fuckin egos into things.  like its gotta be their way, most of the time.  they don't lik it when things dont go their way, and even if they say sorry, they dont really mean it.  i see so many couples get torn cuz one or both of the ppl have egos that jus ruin everything.  and another thing, don't fuckin give into shit your friends say you should do.   yeah.  thats pretty gay, u shouldn't take their advice all the time.  you know best most of the time.  90% of all advice they give u is bullshit anyways.

this has really nothing to do with my life, just things i've seen happening to others around me.  i hate it when i see my friends or just ppl in general in pain over stupid things or cuz of other ppl.  i hate it more when its cuz one person takes the other(s) in their life for granted.  everyone of you is lucky to have known each other, joked with each other, gotten to know each other, and even gotten close to each other.

damn this is one long ass entry is just a couple of the 0923042 thoughts goin thru my head right now.  some ppl....dayuummm.......i know no one is gonna read this, but if just one person reads this, and it helps him....then good.  its worth the rest of you thinkin i'm weird, pissed, sad, depressed, bipolar, or whatever.

i think i'm gonna use this more, yeah?

hey everybodyy!

yesterday was sadie's and  i went with my cute girlfriend michellee.  it was really funn.  thank u so much mishieee i love youuuuuu

happy one year anniversary baby

hey

i think im gonna stop xanga-ing and stop facebooking n stuff like that.  mite randomly use it...but prolly not......not gonna take them down, but....jus not gonna use 'em anymore...laterrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr

my schedule:

1.  weight training  /  organic chem

2.  ap english guith

3.  calc bc sob. however u spell it

4.  phys c morrison

5.  accounting (dropping it)  /  intro to P.E. (YESSIRRR)

6.  spanish 2  lawrason

--ishan

these past six months have been incredibleee.  i love you soo much michelle

HAPPY 6 MONTHS BABY 

hey happy valentines day everyone.  i love you witto baby.

hmmmm..jus thought some of you mite like to read this.

A Single Day Late

we were friends
we had been for so long
but i wanted something more
and it didn't feel wrong

i felt that i needed you
and now i know i do
but fate is my enemy
because i truly love you

i never could tell you
i thought you were taken
how could i have so
foolishly mistaken

that all that time
that i loved you
you had felt the same way
and loved me too

the secrets i carried
you carried as well
and i would have carried them
to the depths of hell

for you.
for you.

now i love you
and i burn against fate
for i declared my love
a single day late

you looked to the floor
and i asked what was wrong
and the truth spilled out
but it didn't take long

to realize that you'd
felt the very same way
and loved me the same
but for one single day

you'd finally accepted
i would never love you
and gave up on me 
because you never knew

that every time i touched
you i cried
and when i said i liked to be friends
i lied

i want you so badly
i've just myself to hate
for i was oblivious
and a single day late

just a single day late.

so if you ever love someone
and they just don't know
tell them and tell them
and just tell them so

because worse than rejection
and never having met
is the most horrible feeling
of having
regret

i can't go back
i can't change a thing
but you've still a chance
so do it for me

get up and call them
or go for a walk
i ruined my chance
when i could've talked

all that time 
we'd felt the same way
but she left me alone
just a single day late

so tell them right now
please don't hesitate
because just one day could be
a single day late

^^i didn't write this^^